There is no more Jeremy and I

We resentnly decided not to be friends any more i guess you can say. We have had a lot of nasty fights over the past 2 or 3 yrs that we have been friends. Mostly about who he's with or who im with. And recently i havnt been trying to hide how little i care for the other femals in his life. Time and time again ive let this go on and im tired of waiting on him to be with me and leave the other femals alone. But like always he has some excuse as to why it cant happen.

So i decided it was time that we finally talk this thing out, because once again i was out of a relationship and i was waiting on him to get the balls to ask me out, lets just say he was taking to long for me so i brought up the topic of who is was FUCKING at da time. And it just happen to be the woman that he has been roommates with for the better part of the last yr, KELLY. I have nothing against her, but i feel sorry for her.

The Conversation:

Me: so who do u go with now?

Jemery: mane nobody, just fucking sumbody

Me: and who is that somebody

Jeremy: uhhh lol, i dont think u want to kno that

IM THINKING TO MYSELF, I KNO HE AINT TRYING TO BULL SHIT ME

Me: yea i do, so who is it n for how long

Jeremy: mane its kelly n just for a lil whille like 3 weeks

Me: wooooooow, ok

Jeremy: i just dont want to be in a relationship its nothing serious

Now me being me of course i had a few words i wanted to say about this and i did. And i have to problem with people of any color this is just how it came out.

Me: u tlkin bout white bitch u been living with?

Jeremy: yeap

Me: u fucking ha?

Jeremy: yeap

IF U KNO ME (and his ass does) THEN YOU KNO I DONT LIKE CONTINUED ONE WORD ANSWEAR

Me: and u was going to tell me when? i been waiting on you. you said you was ready to be with me.

OK SO THIS WENT ON FOR A WHILLE

The next night him and Kelly are having a conversation, whille they are getting high, and she brings up my name along with other femals and a certain text msg he sent me after the conversation we had about him and her. He's kind of slow so he forgets things like to delete the text msg he sent me from HER phone about not wanting to be with her and her daugther found it and told her about it. Ok i found this funny as hell and even more funny she brought this up when she knew he was on the phone with me. The conversation went from the text msg to the fact that a girl name samy (cant stand that bitch) dont like her (y she would care idc) to if i like her to if he wanted to be with her. I dont like to be in peoples drama so i tried to get off the phone but he said no (he knew what he was doing), so i just decided to just listen.

His blk ass had da nerve to tell her that i liked her (i neva said i liked, i just don't have a problem with her), that i had said it was sweet that he was calling her baby (what i rly said was "y da fuck u calling dat bitch baby"), and that i liked her. I was pissed no pasted pissed. So i kind of just shut all da fucking way down. He was confusing her ass like never before. I mean he was feeding her so much bullshit she should of been throwing up. He told her she was the reason they wasn't together yet, she didn't know what she was talking about, i mean da shit went on and on and ill admit i was laughing at her ass, until i realized he had been doing da same shit to me. But i decided i would wait to snap.

And skipping along maybe 3 fights up to this past week. I put a few words to him on my myspace page lol, he didn't take it to well. He text me the same thing he always text me when we have a fight. Something like ' i thought i needed you in my life, i love u but idk what is wrong with you, i guess i don't need you in my life you was supposed to be the one, but i will just have to live with out you. Now luckily i have a lot of experience with abuse from guys soooo i don't fall for lines like that when i know the person is full of bull shit. But as of now, we r not friends and im thinking it should stay this way.

GOOD BYE DRAMA

JEREMY AND I

Just like any other night after i got off the phone with my boy-friend i called my best-friend Jeremy, but little did i know this would be the night that i almost lost my best-friend. He answered the same way he always do with that sexy deep voice ''wat up boo'' and i answered with a low giggle ''nothing just chilling in my room but u already know that you got to call me back because its long distance'' and he said ''iight i got u''. Now usually it takes him like ten minutes to call me back but tonight he called right back and so that my parents dont hear the phone ring at two in the mourning i call my cell voice mail. When i answered the he sounded really sweet so i asked him why was he so happy and he just laughed and said ''im just happy to be talking to my boo'' and like always i giggled. We went on Talking for hours about the things that we usually talk about my relationship with my boy-friend and what girls are he talking to and planing on hocking up with. I noticed that any time i would say anything about my boy-friend he would become a little tensed and his voice would become a little deeper in-which you can always notice my voice become lower when he talks about how fine other girls because i fell left out in a way and of course i get jealous but he always remind me that they are just a fuck which always makes me laugh. I finally asked him what was wrong but he said nothing and altho we have only been friends for five moths i have learned him pretty well and knew he was lieing so i waited a few minutes and asked again. He wonted to know if he could ask me something and i said anything but i never would of never guessed that the question would of been what if was.



Do you think that you and your boy-friend will ever break up?



I don't know, we don't plain on it but i don't know what will happen in the future.



Well Do u think that im wasting my time talking to you?



What do you mean wasting your time?



I wont to me with you one day but more than friends but your saying that you and your boy-friend will never brake up.



I didn't even know that u felt that way about me.



But im always flirting with you how could you not know and i thought u liked me becuase you always flirt back.



I do but i do that with all of my friends im sorry i didn't know that u liked me that much i thought that you was just playing around, why didn't you tell me?



You know what forget it Shawanda i don't wont to talk about it anymore!!!!!!!!



But we need to talk about it cause i didn't even know that you felt that way!!!!!!



CLICK!!!!!!! and he hung up the phone.



I tried calling back at least three times but i keep getting the answering machine, but finally he called me back. But all he said was ''i'm just calling you back to say I love you and good night'' and then he just hung up so i just turned over and went to bed but I ended up staying up all night thinking about what had just happened.



The next day i got up and like always checked my myspace messages and surprisingly i had one from him and it read as follows:



i knew u was to good to b tru but now i kno i will neva b with you.. see all this time that i've been giving to u i coulda been puttin towards another female but my dumb ass was tryna stay single thinking one day u and ur boyfriend that u neva saw would break up one day....c if u wasent so sweet,beautiful,caring this woulda neva happen now i got all these mixed up feelings for a girl that i'll neva b with wow thats gotta hurt..u need to stop flirting with folks knowing u got a man....i should'nt evevn been talking to a 15 yr old in the first place what the fuks wrong with me idk.....if ur boyfriend eva leave u he'll be the most dudmbest dude in the world 4 letting go of sumbody so precious...



i love u (S D W)



and all i could do was cry cause i realized how much i had hurt someone who meant the world to me and i really didn't wont to lose. So i replied to the message and we went back and ford writhing talking about it and he finally i asked he if he wonted to stop talking to me but he said he had to many felling for me to just up and stop talking to me. i could never say how happy that made me and he finally send me another message saying ''im about to call you boo so pick up the phone'' and so i did.

When he called he asked me what had i been doing all day and i said crying. Of course he wonted to know why and i told him because i felt so bad after i read his message. I still don't know how many times i apologized but he said it was ok and that he would wait and see what happened and that if me and my boy-friend broke-up before he left for college that he would stay so that me and him could work on having a relationship, and all i could say was ok well wait and see what happened.