JEREMY AND I

Just like any other night after i got off the phone with my boy-friend i called my best-friend Jeremy, but little did i know this would be the night that i almost lost my best-friend. He answered the same way he always do with that sexy deep voice ''wat up boo'' and i answered with a low giggle ''nothing just chilling in my room but u already know that you got to call me back because its long distance'' and he said ''iight i got u''. Now usually it takes him like ten minutes to call me back but tonight he called right back and so that my parents dont hear the phone ring at two in the mourning i call my cell voice mail. When i answered the he sounded really sweet so i asked him why was he so happy and he just laughed and said ''im just happy to be talking to my boo'' and like always i giggled. We went on Talking for hours about the things that we usually talk about my relationship with my boy-friend and what girls are he talking to and planing on hocking up with. I noticed that any time i would say anything about my boy-friend he would become a little tensed and his voice would become a little deeper in-which you can always notice my voice become lower when he talks about how fine other girls because i fell left out in a way and of course i get jealous but he always remind me that they are just a fuck which always makes me laugh. I finally asked him what was wrong but he said nothing and altho we have only been friends for five moths i have learned him pretty well and knew he was lieing so i waited a few minutes and asked again. He wonted to know if he could ask me something and i said anything but i never would of never guessed that the question would of been what if was.



Do you think that you and your boy-friend will ever break up?



I don't know, we don't plain on it but i don't know what will happen in the future.



Well Do u think that im wasting my time talking to you?



What do you mean wasting your time?



I wont to me with you one day but more than friends but your saying that you and your boy-friend will never brake up.



I didn't even know that u felt that way about me.



But im always flirting with you how could you not know and i thought u liked me becuase you always flirt back.



I do but i do that with all of my friends im sorry i didn't know that u liked me that much i thought that you was just playing around, why didn't you tell me?



You know what forget it Shawanda i don't wont to talk about it anymore!!!!!!!!



But we need to talk about it cause i didn't even know that you felt that way!!!!!!



CLICK!!!!!!! and he hung up the phone.



I tried calling back at least three times but i keep getting the answering machine, but finally he called me back. But all he said was ''i'm just calling you back to say I love you and good night'' and then he just hung up so i just turned over and went to bed but I ended up staying up all night thinking about what had just happened.



The next day i got up and like always checked my myspace messages and surprisingly i had one from him and it read as follows:



i knew u was to good to b tru but now i kno i will neva b with you.. see all this time that i've been giving to u i coulda been puttin towards another female but my dumb ass was tryna stay single thinking one day u and ur boyfriend that u neva saw would break up one day....c if u wasent so sweet,beautiful,caring this woulda neva happen now i got all these mixed up feelings for a girl that i'll neva b with wow thats gotta hurt..u need to stop flirting with folks knowing u got a man....i should'nt evevn been talking to a 15 yr old in the first place what the fuks wrong with me idk.....if ur boyfriend eva leave u he'll be the most dudmbest dude in the world 4 letting go of sumbody so precious...



i love u (S D W)



and all i could do was cry cause i realized how much i had hurt someone who meant the world to me and i really didn't wont to lose. So i replied to the message and we went back and ford writhing talking about it and he finally i asked he if he wonted to stop talking to me but he said he had to many felling for me to just up and stop talking to me. i could never say how happy that made me and he finally send me another message saying ''im about to call you boo so pick up the phone'' and so i did.

When he called he asked me what had i been doing all day and i said crying. Of course he wonted to know why and i told him because i felt so bad after i read his message. I still don't know how many times i apologized but he said it was ok and that he would wait and see what happened and that if me and my boy-friend broke-up before he left for college that he would stay so that me and him could work on having a relationship, and all i could say was ok well wait and see what happened.